4 years here, seems to changed my life a lot.180 degres perhaps. maybe the now me is not good enough.weird.thats how i feel about myself. the now me. do not even have a courage to dance in front of the crowd. have no courage to be a sunday school teacher.specially when i have to sing in front of them. have no courage to speak up no confidence to confess my existance. is there something wrong with me..?
i really wish i can have my courage back. maybe..aku trauma gitu ya. mungkin terlalu banyak hal yg terjadi in the past. aku yg dulu berani, sekarang jadi penakut menghadapi sesuatu. mana ada sih org yg mau jalur hidupnya decline. semua dr kita pasti mau naik terus dunkz.
Aku nggak akan pernah berhenti menemukan keberanian ku yang telah hilang. mungkin it is part of the process. di setiap hidup manusia, bukankah selalu ada process?
I have tried not thinking about it. but i can't it's like i really need the courage..
4 years here, seems to changed my life a lot.180 degres perhaps. maybe the now me is not good enough.weird.thats how i feel about myself. the now me. do not even have a courage to dance in front of the crowd. have no courage to be a sunday school teacher.specially when i have to sing in front of them. have no courage to speak up no confidence to confess my existance. is there something wrong with me..?
i really wish i can have my courage back. maybe..aku trauma gitu ya. mungkin terlalu banyak hal yg terjadi in the past. aku yg dulu berani, sekarang jadi penakut menghadapi sesuatu. mana ada sih org yg mau jalur hidupnya decline. semua dr kita pasti mau naik terus dunkz.
Aku nggak akan pernah berhenti menemukan keberanian ku yang telah hilang. mungkin it is part of the process. di setiap hidup manusia, bukankah selalu ada process?
I have tried not thinking about it. but i can't it's like i really need the courage..
where have i gone?
