waiting for you is like waiting for rain in the drought. but......... if i never waited for you........ i would regretted it.......... because i never express my love i don't express my loyaly i don't give a try i don't know the feeling of waiting. so.i guess all of these are worth it.
but then..now i've decided to give it up. eventhough i still love him. i know me and him are impossible. we live totally in a different world i live in a world where, i need to satisy people around me.i dun't wanna dissapoint them..infact..I CAN'T dissapoint them... i live in a well-mannered situation.. Parents.friends.expect me to do anything good. can't go clubbing.can't fail subject. after uni..do this..and that..and this.. whereas..him.. he lives in a world that is full of freedom. he can do whatever he wants. go to a skul that is not even good.wagged.suspension. i can't have a life like that my live is all well planned by parents.
even though sometime, i really want to be free like him..and want to live in his world. yet, i don't think i'm allowed to..and maybe, i don't want it now. i'm scared of my future.i want it to be PERFECT! i don't want it to be like now.. feeling of being lonely.and unsecure. i know GOD is with me. but sometimes... when my friend hurted me. i wish there is someone who will stand for me. someone who will protect me and say " don't do this to her"
if i still in indo now.maybe we still possible. closer distance. closer environment. perhaps.closer world.at least, i won't have to achieve such a perfect life. but...maybe..i want it too.coz.i dunt wanna let them dissapointed.
i still love him..i really do. he treated me like if i am a princess made me smile everyday letting me did everything to him.slapped him.hitted him. how is wish at that time i didn't reject. and maybe.we are still together.
if i have a chance to go back.....and to choose................ maybe ill consider it. if i have to live my perfectionist world?? emm..ill think about it. i dunt wanna dissapointed them...but.......... i love him...
i believe one day.ill meet someone who live in a perfectionist world.just like me. he will treasure me.he will protect me.and he sure will say that line.
waiting for you is like waiting for rain in the drought. but......... if i never waited for you........ i would regretted it.......... because i never express my love i don't express my loyaly i don't give a try i don't know the feeling of waiting. so.i guess all of these are worth it.
but then..now i've decided to give it up. eventhough i still love him. i know me and him are impossible. we live totally in a different world i live in a world where, i need to satisy people around me.i dun't wanna dissapoint them..infact..I CAN'T dissapoint them... i live in a well-mannered situation.. Parents.friends.expect me to do anything good. can't go clubbing.can't fail subject. after uni..do this..and that..and this.. whereas..him.. he lives in a world that is full of freedom. he can do whatever he wants. go to a skul that is not even good.wagged.suspension. i can't have a life like that my live is all well planned by parents.
even though sometime, i really want to be free like him..and want to live in his world. yet, i don't think i'm allowed to..and maybe, i don't want it now. i'm scared of my future.i want it to be PERFECT! i don't want it to be like now.. feeling of being lonely.and unsecure. i know GOD is with me. but sometimes... when my friend hurted me. i wish there is someone who will stand for me. someone who will protect me and say " don't do this to her"
if i still in indo now.maybe we still possible. closer distance. closer environment. perhaps.closer world.at least, i won't have to achieve such a perfect life. but...maybe..i want it too.coz.i dunt wanna let them dissapointed.
i still love him..i really do. he treated me like if i am a princess made me smile everyday letting me did everything to him.slapped him.hitted him. how is wish at that time i didn't reject. and maybe.we are still together.
if i have a chance to go back.....and to choose................ maybe ill consider it. if i have to live my perfectionist world?? emm..ill think about it. i dunt wanna dissapointed them...but.......... i love him...
i believe one day.ill meet someone who live in a perfectionist world.just like me. he will treasure me.he will protect me.and he sure will say that line.
