helowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww....what a tiring day todei. onli one econz class can make me even more tired than yesterday??!!.. maybe because i haven't have enough sleep yesterday and the day before. semua capek numpuk jadi satu.... yeh, so i slept from 3-6pm. but felt like sleeping ages olredi..i thought its olredi 8 pm. but still 6pm.hoho.. pig olredi.
emm..nothing actually happen today. but recently, i have lots dream about him. nearly everday i dreamt about him, being a good friend of him. why all of a sudden, this dream came in mind?.. kalo bener aku emank bisa jadi temen deketnya.. knp belom ada tanda tanda lain...?.. are will really fated to each other?.. or not?... does fate really exist?....a saying says "fate does exist" actually i dont understand the "real" meaning of fate.. but..................yeah..H.A.H.A
and...start from today onwards i want to study well. just todai i realise that a course that i am taking is a hard course... how dumb..rite! for the past 8 months i never realise that accounting and finance is a tough subject?!?! i just know it today..means..I HAVE TO WORK REALLY HARD!
i have been thinking changing my major. but well.... i don't think i suit the other major. udah kepentok ama ini.nggak tau mau pilih major apa. aku ini kayak bingung sebenere aku mau ambil subject ya aku bener bener suka, ato subject ya punya future bagus?... klo subject yang punya future bagus..ini aku bener bener kurang sreg. tp..in other side, i dun't even know what i really really like. i dunt wanna waste my time taking subjects that i don't like... i'm so lost... i think i'm really lost...and i wish i can find my way home someday ...^^
these past few days... i kinda lost my "real happiness" maybe............i dun know whatz wrong with me. when lotts people surround me..i am hepi. but when noone actually with me.. i think a lot!and i become not hepi anymore.
in my whole life, this is my first time for feeling like this.. ini lah yg dinamain kebahagiaan dunia.. hanya temporary.. i really want my "joy" back.. even looking at zhang dong liang's pic will only help a little bit..usually, i see him smile... HELP A LOT!!
well, i guess..i just need to get back my feet on track... wieuhhh. just dun wanna think about anything... try to be hepi... and.."i'm sorry LOrd".. i really sorrie.
Confession of mE.
i like to see people smile.. i like to see his smile i like a guy who is careless, but cute and sweet... i don't like romantic guys..so gombal!
i still love him.. i have been trying to forget but still haven't forget yet.. because aku emank gak rela at the first place. aku emank gak perna mau dia meninggalkan hidup ku gitu aja. well.maybe someday ay.
i'm so scared about my future. i'm not a brave girl actually..coz im scared of lottaz things. and...i reli need someone who can protect me... perhaps, someday i can find him..
but for now..i have my "above Daddy".. and i know he won't let me down.thenkie.
helowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww....what a tiring day todei. onli one econz class can make me even more tired than yesterday??!!.. maybe because i haven't have enough sleep yesterday and the day before. semua capek numpuk jadi satu.... yeh, so i slept from 3-6pm. but felt like sleeping ages olredi..i thought its olredi 8 pm. but still 6pm.hoho.. pig olredi.
emm..nothing actually happen today. but recently, i have lots dream about him. nearly everday i dreamt about him, being a good friend of him. why all of a sudden, this dream came in mind?.. kalo bener aku emank bisa jadi temen deketnya.. knp belom ada tanda tanda lain...?.. are will really fated to each other?.. or not?... does fate really exist?....a saying says "fate does exist" actually i dont understand the "real" meaning of fate.. but..................yeah..H.A.H.A
and...start from today onwards i want to study well. just todai i realise that a course that i am taking is a hard course... how dumb..rite! for the past 8 months i never realise that accounting and finance is a tough subject?!?! i just know it today..means..I HAVE TO WORK REALLY HARD!
i have been thinking changing my major. but well.... i don't think i suit the other major. udah kepentok ama ini.nggak tau mau pilih major apa. aku ini kayak bingung sebenere aku mau ambil subject ya aku bener bener suka, ato subject ya punya future bagus?... klo subject yang punya future bagus..ini aku bener bener kurang sreg. tp..in other side, i dun't even know what i really really like. i dunt wanna waste my time taking subjects that i don't like... i'm so lost... i think i'm really lost...and i wish i can find my way home someday ...^^
these past few days... i kinda lost my "real happiness" maybe............i dun know whatz wrong with me. when lotts people surround me..i am hepi. but when noone actually with me.. i think a lot!and i become not hepi anymore.
in my whole life, this is my first time for feeling like this.. ini lah yg dinamain kebahagiaan dunia.. hanya temporary.. i really want my "joy" back.. even looking at zhang dong liang's pic will only help a little bit..usually, i see him smile... HELP A LOT!!
well, i guess..i just need to get back my feet on track... wieuhhh. just dun wanna think about anything... try to be hepi... and.."i'm sorry LOrd".. i really sorrie.
Confession of mE.
i like to see people smile.. i like to see his smile i like a guy who is careless, but cute and sweet... i don't like romantic guys..so gombal!
i still love him.. i have been trying to forget but still haven't forget yet.. because aku emank gak rela at the first place. aku emank gak perna mau dia meninggalkan hidup ku gitu aja. well.maybe someday ay.
i'm so scared about my future. i'm not a brave girl actually..coz im scared of lottaz things. and...i reli need someone who can protect me... perhaps, someday i can find him..
but for now..i have my "above Daddy".. and i know he won't let me down.thenkie.
